One of my biggest struggles as I attempt to walk with Jesus is discontentedness. I don’t know what the difference between depression and discontentedness is, but I will avoid the term depression…though I feel fairly certain they both spring from a similar place deep within ourselves…Still, I struggle with being discontent.
Let me pause here for a moment and say, I know that I am a blessed man. I look around, I have a beautiful wife, I have four amazing kids, I have a job that I don’t hate, a family that loves me very much, and many, many dear friends. Still, I struggle. Many times I am still discontent. Even in my walk with God, even in my spirituality, I struggle with discontentedness.
Honestly I think that all of my other struggles in this area springs forth from this ‘spiritual discontent’. I was reading recently and the author spoke of being stuck between the marvelous and the mundane, or the daily and the divine…I think that is where I find myself often. I am longing for the marvelous, and I am longing for the divine…yet I feel trapped in the mundane. I feel trapped in the daily. Honestly I don’t think I’m alone in this.
All of us, in some shape, form, or fashion long for something more. Whether it be our wanting our spouse to act or be different, our kids to obey better, or a better job, or even a deeper more satisfying walk with God…We want more. Am I wrong?
So what is the answer?
I was going through one of these episodes last week, and as God often does He directed me to a passage of Scripture that I’ve read many, many times…But finally I was able to see myself in this passage.
In Exodus 16, the Israelites are grumbling because they are hungry and don’t have enough to eat. Now keep in mind God has already freed them from the slavery of the Egyptians…The Israelites have experienced miracle after miracle. They have witnessed the Passover, they have even seen God part the Red Sea, and drown an army of Egyptians just before they are ready to overtake them for Pete’s sake. They have seen God do some awesome stuff…But here they are whining because they don’t have enough to eat…(Let’s be careful not to bash the Israelites here too much, because honestly, are we that much different?)
Well, I’m sure most of us know the rest of the story. God sends Quail for the Israelites to eat in the evening and Manna, a sort of wafer-like-honey-tasting sort of bread to eat in the morning. Thus the Israelites are fed and provided for and satisfied…well at least until they get thirsty…but you get the point. God always provided. God was all the Israelites needed to be satisfied and sustained. As long as they had God, they had all they would need. When they lost sight of this truth, they grumbled and complained…And God provided.
I have heard the grumbling of the people of Israel. Say to them, ‘At twilight you shall eat meat, and in the morning you shall be filled with bread. Then you shall know that I am the LORD your God.
(Exodus 16:12 ESV)
Fast forward to John 6. A large number of Jesus’ followers are seeking Him. This sounds good at first until you realize that they are only after Jesus because they are hungry and they want Him to provide them with some food. (John 6:26) Christ goes on to explain to His followers that He Himself is the ‘true bread’ from heaven.
Jesus then said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but my Father gives you the true bread from heaven. For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” They said to him, “Sir, give us this bread always.”
Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe. All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day. For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.
(John 6:32-40 ESV)
Well, most of these disciples we come to find aren’t true disciples. They just can’t understand what Jesus is saying here. They can’t accept it, and I can’t help but think they are a little annoyed that He hasn’t given them anything to eat yet. So they grumble, complain, and eventually desert Jesus. Oh, if they had only realized who it was standing before them that day…
Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life. Your fathers ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. And the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.”
The Jews then disputed among themselves, saying, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him. As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate and died. Whoever feeds on this bread will live forever.”
(John 6:47-58 ESV)
Jesus is the bread of Life. If we have Him, why should we hunger for more? We must try to wrap our minds around this truth daily. If we are longing for the marvelous…Focus on He who is marvelous. If we are longing for the Divine…Accept the fact that you have Him in Christ. Receive that truth O’ Child of God. This is a hard saying, and more than likely you will lose sight of that fact…I can almost promise you this. I’m sure I will again. But in these passages, in these words…In the Word, who is Christ, we have the answer to our discontentedness. Christ. Go back to this truth, go back to these passages, these pages, this glorious book that we call the Bible…Go back to it often. Reflect on it, pray over it, and let us always remember, and be reminded often…
The answer is Christ!
The answer is Christ!
The answer is Christ!
Whatever the question, whatever the issue…The answer is Christ.